• 7 October, 2019

Painting of a lost one.

Painting of a lost one.

Painting of a lost one. 1024 683 Cotton Stories

One of our most emotional artwork is the sonogram paintings of a lost one. It can be from an early miscarriage or someone who’s gone through a stillbirth. It is devastating to realize how many parents there is that lose their baby before birth, or shortly after. A pain no parent ever should have to go through.

I had just about to enter my third trimester and was feeling pretty sick of being pregnant. Everything hurt and felt uncomfortable. As I sat by my desk and went through my mailbox I could feel the baby stretching making it almost impossible to sit comfortably. I remember thinking “can’t wait until this is over”. Then I opened an email that changed my way of thinking, forever. 

A mother, who was just as far along as I had just been through the unthinkable.

For the next 20 minutes, I just sat there. Staring at the screen tearing up over what I just read. A mother, who was just as far along as I had just been through the unthinkable. Her baby was stillborn at 29 weeks. It’s unbelievable how fast an emotional mindset can change from one moment to the next. At that very moment, I remember I put my hand on my belly as if I wanted to hug the baby, letting him know I loved him more than anything and that I was never to complain about his movement ever again because the thought of not being able to feel him anymore was just…heartbreaking. 

As I read the stories of parents that go through miscarriage and stillbirth I’ve noticed how incredibly important the grieving process is for each individual, and that the outcome of the painting reflects the parent’s way of keeping the memory of their baby close. Some describe the sonogram picture to be the only real thing they have left from their past that once was supposed to be a part of their future. 

I have created paintings for families where the artwork helps to process grief or when it is a memory of a beautiful time inside the womb or short time in life. And since the request for these honorable paintings got bigger we realized that it wasn’t just a beautiful piece of art, it was a part of their grieving process. And to be able to be part of something that big and emotional is something we are very humble and proud over. 

No sonogram painting is the same, and we take the time to make each painting be just as you want it to be. 

We feel honored to be able to create a piece of art to cherish the little life that is just as loved but forever missed. For some, we’ve created paintings with a dot of red paint, symbolizing the heart that once beat in the womb. The one place where the mother could feel the life of her baby. And for others, we’ve added wings to honor the angel baby. No sonogram painting is the same, and we take the time to make each painting be just as you want it to be. 

The woman that lost her baby at 29 weeks later got back to me to let me know that she was glad she turned her sonogram image into a painting. It had helped her in the grieving process and could now look at the sonogram painting differently. She had turned it into something beautiful, just as her baby. She wanted me to discreetly add angel wings to her image with I did and that reminded her that she didn’t lose her child, it just turned into an angel that she now carried in her heart forever. 

We’ve learned that the loss of a child is the hardest thing to go through, no matter if you lose the baby at 6 or 36 weeks. The love you feel for your child is endless from the day you found out you were expecting and the first time you get to see your baby is a moment we want to keep forever. The sonogram image may be the only picture of those tiny little feet that never got to run around on your kitchen floor, or that beautiful face you will never forget. Therefore we put a lot of heart I honoring the life of a loved one with our sonogram keepsake painting.

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