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24 weeks pregnant- and the anxiety has arrived

Lets give a heads up for not so positive and happy update this week. I’ve been thinking about not posting at all since I couldn’t really think of anything great to say about the past week. But then I thought, who am I trying to fool? I am not some super person who only goes trough happy days and never feel low or not on top. I am the exact opposite. I feel high on life just as much as I feel the lowest of low, So I decided to just tell it as it is, cause I am pretty sure I am not the only one experiencing the feelings I am right now.

The past few weeks its been creeping up on me that we soon will have 2 kids. We will within just a few months have another life to take care of and he will probably shake things up a bit. We’ve been a family of 3 for nearly 4 years and the past 2 years we’ve really been enjoying the life we live. Everything goes on quite smoothly and we feel that we have a great balance between work and family life. Roberts works a lot, so that means I take care of most things regarding our home and Filippa, which has been hard from time to time, but overall she’s pretty easy and we like our daily routine.

We felt we’d reached a time in life where it would be nice to give her a sibling and we both wanted one more child so it felt like the right time. Here’s where I feel a bit torned. “Am I fucking up our life bringing another baby into this house?” “Can you love the next child as much as the first one? “what if we change our minds? (never gonna happen) Is now really the best time? WHAT IF I CANT HANDLE TWO KIDS? pleeeease don’t give me any hard comments or mom shaming on this, I feel bad enough about this already. But feel free to share your experience during your pregnancy.

Everyone keeps telling me its so great and “he is soon here, don’t you want to fast speed the time?” And Im more like – NO! please stop the time for a bit. I need to get my head around this whole thing. I need to feel ready!  will I ever feel ready? I am truly looking forward to our little man, but to be honest I am terrified. I can look at our daughter and burst in to tears knowing that the time we’re its only me and her soon will be over. That she will have to share me with her baby brother. How will she manage that? How can I be there for her the way she needs when I have a baby to put first? Some nights I have nightmares of me forgetting either her or the baby somewhere, and wake up soaking wet and cant catch my breath!

I said to Robert the other day that I wish I was one of those mother who just took things smoothly and didn’t think as much as I apparently do. I am so afraid of fucking things up that I have a hard time focusing on just being there. I know everything probably will fall into place when he is born and hopefully all of my fears will just go away the moment he is placed on my chest but for now, I cant stop feeling stressed over the whole thing. And it seems like every other mother around me just goes with the flow and manage to keep sane all the way, and here I am panicking over the fact that we will have another beautiful baby in our family? But as Robert told me. -You may not feel that you got your shit together, but honestly you are capable of so much more that you think. Did I ever mention I love him? He is my rock, and I truly hope he is right.

Wow, that felt good to put my thoughts out of my head for once. Lets end this with a pic of this 24 weeks belly to show how I feel about this little guy when my worries don’t come to the surface.

What was going trough your mind when you were pregnant?

xoxo
Caroline

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prepping for take off

The last few weeks as been soooo insane , we’ve been having an extrem order pressure and scheduled all of our company collabs to be ready this week. Which means I’ve been painting babies high and low! This week Im shipping of a few paintings to a ultrasound clinic in America, and next week we will be hanging 9 paintings at another company here in Stockholm. It feel so weird yet very exciting to have my work exhibit in the right envoriment.

As the weeks go by I don’t really think as much about the growing baby inside my belly. But now its getting a bit hard not to be reminded every once in a while that he is actually there. He is very active and likes what feels like rolling around in my womb, it kind of tickles and makes you a bit see sick at the same time, haha! And the belly is getting bigger so its getting hard being able to sit down and paint for very long these days….

I never really thought about the fact that the belly would get so huge that it might be difficult for me to paint the way I am used to, but I realize now that I have to start standing up just in a few weeks. good thing I have a table that you can switch positions with.

Cant wait to show you where our paintings will be seen next week! We are super excited!

 

xoxo
Caroline

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23 weeks pregnant!

The baby is now the size of an grapefruit. Thats just insane! haha I still imagine him very small but I can tell by his movement thats he is getting bigger. This week I am actually feeling…wait for it – GREAT! I don’t know if my body is finding its right place in this pregnancy or if its just a really good week overall, but I’ve been able to move more smoothly lately with is such a relief. And the nausea is pretty much all gone now! So if I am lucky, I will feel a lot better the rest of the pregnancy.

I told you guys last week about my clothing crisis and let me tell you it is now even bigger! Feels like the belly exploded this weekend, and I now have trouble wearing pretty much everything I own. And what is the deal with the boobs that won’t stop growing?! Thankfully I use to work at the best maternity underwear website on this earth –Glammom.se who has the best maternity brahs for pregnant and breast-feeding mamas and I will place another order very soon since I’ve already outgrown the brahs I bough a few weeks back…But who says no to some shopping right? woop!

Another thing thats has gone bananas is my sugar cravings. Robert is now seriously thinking about putting a lock our refrigerator since I cant keep my hands away from all kinds of chocolate and aaaaaaaaall I hear is that pregnant people should not eat to much sugar…The people who says that, has never been pregnant. Will it end or just keep getting worse? The easiest thing should be not to buy the stuff, but if he doesn’t…well lets just say he is better off with my gaining a few extra kilos than having to take the fight of a pregnant ladys cravings every night for the next 4 months…

Happy wife, happy life!

xoxo
Caroline

 

 

 

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Our very first business collaboration

I told you guys last week that we’ve been working pretty hard to find new ways to collaborate, and one of our main goals was to find a way to collaborate with other companies. We’ve just started our very first company collab and are so excited to show you. We want to work with companies that share the same passion for value and content as we do but its a bit tricky when the things we sell are nothing we have in stock or can just make other companies want to take in easily. So we had to think outside the box. How do we want to work with other companies, and what could we offer them in exchange? We started to think about what we thought was important while pregnant and the time after birth. Madeleine had just had a prophylactic course and kept talking about how amazing and calming it was. Not only because of the education she got, but because of the great environment and  the people who worked there. After that we realized, this is the kind of place we would want our paintings to be seen. Not on a billboard, not in the subway station (although that would be pretty cool) But in a calm, loving place where soon to be parents go to prepare yourself for the big day.

After meeting the women at BabyGruppen Sthlm we had an even stronger feeling that this was the right place and I know for sure that I will take a few courses myself to prepare for birth, and after birth Im hoping the baby will let me try baby Yoga, that sounds so fun!

Its so nice to enter a place that doesn’t feel clinical as most places do when you’re expecting. This was a warm feeling and it more felt like to step into someones house and we love that we got the honor to hang not only 1 but 4 of our paintings and to be able to give BabyGruppens customers a nice discount as an extra treat for the mama to be. So for all you mamas and papas living in Stockholm, make sure to check out BabyGruppen and see what they have to offer.

We made sure to get a picture of both of us for once, since the lady next to me are the brains behind this mission and the once to come 😉

xoxo
Caroline

 

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22 weeks pregnant

So once again I got a notice on my phone telling me Im 22 weeks pregnant, woop! Its getting hard to find clothes that fit, and feels/look good. WHAT do you buy when you probably won’t slim down anytime soon? The last time I was pregnant I got a big belly just in time for summer, so it was quite easy finding nice outfits, all you needed was a dress and you were done. This time is very different. Its to cold for dresses, but almost to warm to wear sweaters all the time event though thats pretty much all I’m wearing these days. Knits is the perfect outfit if you ask me. But if you do want to show the belly, its not the best clothing. Ive been on sooooo many online shops looking for cool maternity wear but all I seam to find are either cute and girly, or plain basic black white tops from H&M….So if you know any good sites for maternity wear, please let me know! Im getting bored using the same 3 outfits over and over again.

Thank god for Kimono fashion. Robert keeps telling me I don’t need another “morning gown” as he calls it. I nicely reply with -Do you really need another suit?….thought so 😉

My usual belly photographer is not here today so I had to try and take the pictures myself. So if you wonder why I’m constantly on the phone on every picture, its because Im controlling the camera trough it. Im not that good at “acting natural” but I sure look bussy…

Here it is! Cotton baby 22 weeks! I feel so much bigger this time, has anyone else felt the same way or is it just me? Feels like I looked like this when I was 35 weeks pregnant with Filippa. Maybe you get bigger the second time around….or maybe its all the cookies I keep pretending not to eat…

xoxo
Caroline

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So last week didn’t go as planned…

so last week didn’t go quite as planned, but now a days thats more usual than unusual. I had an early appointment at the midwife on Wednesday to do another sonogram to check the location of my placenta. On the 20 week scan the placenta “wall” was halfway down so we did another check to see that it wouldn’t  go further down and “block the exit”. And it didn’t! Its now placed towards my back so he should have no problem finding his way out.

How cute is this? My heart melted when she said “mom, he is so cute”. She sure shares my enthusiasm for these sonogram images and actually see a cute baby and not an alien. She will run the business one day 😉

After the scan I  had 2 hours to work before I had to pic up Filippa at Roberts office since she was not feeling very well and we decided not to take her to preschool. Since he was away in Africa she’s been so klingy on him and was super happy when he told her she had to go with him to the office for a few hours and now all she talks about is going there everyday, cause apparently she works there now haha!

The only thing that is a little tricky when she has to be home from preschool is that I cant do as many paintings as I normally do in one day. in fact I cant even make 1 as long as she’s awake. Ive tried, and it has ended up with me putting the wrong name on a painting or that she “helps me” when I turn my back on it and aaaah..theres some blue lines on the baby’s face. Don’t think you guys would appreciate it as much as she does so I’ve just decided that the hard work begins when she’s asleep. And that means I work long nights on weeks like this! Its a good thing I do love my job. So last week has been all about, running between meetings and baking stuff with a toddler. My sugar craving has gone totally bananas the last few weeks so I gladly bake colorful cookies and eat them all and blame it on Robert when she askes where they all went…

xoxo
Caroline

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How it all started…

Every now and then I get the question how it all started? How did I come up with the Idea of painting sonograms, and when did I decide to make business out of it?

It all started when I was pregnant with my daughter 3 years ago. I had a scan at 17 weeks to check on the baby to see that all was well and thankfully it was! I didn’t get a picture since it was just a quick check up but I was so amazed by the little human in my belly that held up her hand almost like she was waving. I knew I just had to create a mental picture from it. So as soon as I got home I brought out my paint and brush and did a very quick sketch of what I’ve just saw. My baby, bouncing around under my heart, Such an amazing and weird feeling when its the first time you experience it. I can still remember how I just sat in the kitchen staring at that sketch thinking “wow, thats a part of me and Robert right there”.

Months went by and I kept thinking that I was going to do something with my 20 weeks sonogram image as well but time went by and she was born and then it just wasn’t on my mind until my friend was pregnant. I thought it would be nice to give her, her sonogram image as a painting. And after that I noticed that its was a pretty cool thing to do so I started small, just painting for friends and family. But as the words spread I realized I could actually make a business out of the whole thing and I decided to go all the way. And now I paint sonograms of twins, triplets, and even tiny embryos for people all over the world. I remembered the excitement I got when we shipped the first order beyond Sweden, that was a great feeling. Now we ship to every continent on this Earth. That is just….wow.

This journey I’ve been on so far has been the most amazing one in my life. It has not only been happy clappy and challenging in ways I didn’t know existed. It has also been extremely tuff, it is not easy running your own business and some of the decisions you have to take is not easy, and I’ve been taking some pretty rough ones the past few months. But you learn from it and hopefully it all makes sense in the long run.

I love doing what I do today, and I hope that this is only the beginning of the greatest adventure there ever will be.

xoxo
Caroline

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To get out of your comfort zone

We work with collaborations as most brands do today, using influencers as a way to get you out there. Its a very fun and creative, but also risky way to do business. You never really know if it will go the way you think. And the thing is that its not at all about how many followers, or how expensive  the collaboration might be that always pays out in the end. We’ve noticed that even the smaller accounts can bring you much more than the bigger ones. Its all about timing, audience and branding. We love finding influencers, big or small doesn’t really matter, if we see potential or a creative personality we go with it!

Collaborations with influencers are fun but we’ve been wanting to trying something new and work more with other companies and see how that works. Let me tell you that its not easy coming from knowing pretty much nothing about marketing, branding and all the other stuffs behind building your brand. And then just hit the action button and get out there! Thats why you should team up with someone that knows maybe not all, but more than you do so you can run the extra mile together. And to be honest, to have someones hand to hold when you don’t really know what you’ve gotten yourself into, makes you run a little further… I have that feeling a lot these days, you get a kick from trying something new and unknown not really knowing if it will be for the better or worse. But hey, you snooze, you loose right?

During the past few weeks we’ve been contacting companies we would like to work with in some way and now it really starting to pay off which is such a great feeling. I can honestly say that If it wasn’t for Madeleine I wouldn’t have had the courage to do half the things she makes me do these days. She has the guts that I sometimes lack, and thats why its such a great thing working with her on this. And she knows her way around how to communicate with other companies. I am an artist. I can talk about a lot of stuff, ask me anything about the paintings or how to blend colors. But when it comes to “deal or no deal” Im not that tuff…yet.

We’ll tell you all about our very first collaboration with another company next week. Until then you get a little sneak peak of how it looks 😉

xoxo
Caroline

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21 weeks pregnant!

So far I am enjoying this pregnancy week (entered it today haha) but everything feels so much better than last week. As I mention in the previous post, last week was an emotional mess on my end, but now everything is back to normal and my hormones seems to have gone back to normal crazy.

Since we where out running between meetings this weeks belly had to be on the go! A bit hard to see the size with all the clothing but its growing for sure and Im afraid to say this out loud but, its actually been easier walking the past few days and Im sooooo hoping that it will continue like this now. I feel so isolated when I cant move around the way I am used to and I don’t deal with pregnancy pains very well! I am a moaner on that area for sure.

Here it is, 21 weeks. only 19 (hopefully) weeks to go and I feel his kicks more for each day!

 

The past few weeks we been working really hard finding new ways to be seen and since this is totally new for both of us, its really fun and scary putting yourself out there. We always meet up 1 pur before a business meeting to go trough all the details. What do we want to say, how are we going to say it, and most importantly, HOW do you sell yourself the right way? SO many questions, so few answers.

The meeting we hade was scheduled way before Madde had her now 7 weeks old baby. She wanted to wait a few weeks to get a routine before we started to bring the baby to all kinds of meetings. I must say that baby Thea has been so smooth during all of our meetings and I really hope my future baby will behave the same…..have a strong feeling he won’t though.

A little sneak-peak on what we were doing after the meeting. We are so excited about this collaboration and we will tell you guys more about it in the future when we’ve worked out all the details. Its funny how life turnes out the way it does. I could never have imagine that I would do the things I do today just 3 years back, and the things we have planner for next year makes me wanna pinch my arm. Its really true what they say -If you can dream it. You can do it. Make it work!

xoxo
Caroline

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Hormonal rollercoaster

Pregnancy Week 20 will go to this pregnancy history of disaster weeks! its been a hormonal rollercoaster. Since Robert was in Africa I was alone during the week and thats usually fine. For a few days. Then its like something switches and I absolutely hate being alone. I get scared for all the little things (and big ), “what if I die in my sleep and no one will find Filippa until days later?” I know this sounds super crazy but once the thought get stuck in you head, its kinda hard to get it out. especially since you are alone so IF it happens, well you are screwed. Thankfully my best friend decided to call me every single morning just to check that I was alive and kicking which made the nights a lot easier.

When Thursday came everything took a turn and I just panicked over the fact of being alone for 4 more days so I decided to go to my parents over the weekend. I don’t understand why I get so scared of being alone for to long. Im usually a person who loves to be alone but I guess its different when you don’t choose to be alone, or when its for more than just 2-3 days. Ive told Robert he is not allowed to travel anymore during this pregnancy. When I think about it I don’t think he will ever be allowed to leave the house after this baby is born. If I hate being alone with one child. Just imagine the scares when I have 2 lives to look after! Jikes! Or maybe I should just get my shit together and stop being so afraid of being along. It didn’t help that someone rang the doorbell at 11pm one night. While I was in bed, after watching way to many episodes of “the Haunting at Hill House”…..No I didn’t check who it was…nope! Didn’t even move haha.

I’ll give you guys an update on the growing belly later, now Im off to meet up Madde and go to an excited meeting!

xoxo
C

 

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